"The Deposition of Desire"
in this most off putting
of equations
you stand on both sides
in defiance to the order of operations
there is the you that demands it
and the you who acts as if to reluctantly
allow the calculation
forgetting that this and the other vanities feed you
and awe is desperately easy to fake
i can once again dance dutiful
the counterbalance
it sounds loud and everyone is amused
but even the remnants of an empty echo must be kept somewhere
let me love the nothingness
acolyte of the silent recitation
held as sacred things are always held
let my song remind me
that memory and experience
represent all possibilities
and i must weave from them my reality
let me remember
that i do not have to be a consequence of the things i desire
that i may mourn the little deaths in my heart
that i do not have to accept your intransigence
that i was once and always the judge
that i have carved my existence into the world through revision
that not even i am my master
and that you never were the answer
in this most off putting
of equations
you stand on both sides
in defiance to the order of operations
there is the you that demands it
and the you who acts as if to reluctantly
allow the calculation
forgetting that this and the other vanities feed you
and awe is desperately easy to fake
i can once again dance dutiful
the counterbalance
it sounds loud and everyone is amused
but even the remnants of an empty echo must be kept somewhere
let me love the nothingness
acolyte of the silent recitation
held as sacred things are always held
let my song remind me
that memory and experience
represent all possibilities
and i must weave from them my reality
let me remember
that i do not have to be a consequence of the things i desire
that i may mourn the little deaths in my heart
that i do not have to accept your intransigence
that i was once and always the judge
that i have carved my existence into the world through revision
that not even i am my master
and that you never were the answer